The Tiny Shoes You Never Got to Wear

Three years 💔

Before we lost you, I never quite understood how people could say “Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you” and it be true.

I have thought of you literally every single day for the last three years, and I understand now it can absolutely be true.

Some mornings, you are a whisper between my dreams and reality.

Some nights, you’re my last thought with a single tear rolling down my cheek as I fall asleep.

Some times it’s the sound of children down the street that makes me pause and wonder what your personality would be like today.

Some times it’s sitting down to eat and wondering if you would have eaten your veggies.

Some days, it’s been weeks since the thought of you led to tears, but the flood gates open again, seemingly out of nowhere.

Some days, I allow myself to sit and daydream about how our life would be different with you here.

Some moments, your name just drifts across my mind, and I whisper it under my breath with an “I miss you.”

Some days, I think about the tiny shoes I spent way too long picking out for you, that you never got to wear.

You are always in the back of my mind and in my heart in every thing I do.

Not a single day goes by that I don’t think of you, my sweet pea Ava Lea.

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